Thursday, August 27, 2009
Tuesday, August 25, 2009
My cup runneth over....If only I could have legs like that and fish nets under my apron!
Monday, August 24, 2009
Sunday, August 23, 2009
There are undoubtedly people in this world that have been blessed in such a way that they believe the entire world revolves around them. The problem with this for them is, they can not look beyond their own image. The problem with this for us is, that we have to walk beside them on this planet. Why can't they get stuck at the pool of water and then be turned into a beautiful flower?
Narcissus who was renowned for his beauty. In the various stories he is exceptionally cruel, in that he disdains those who love him. As divine punishment he falls in love with a reflection in a pool, not realizing it was his own, and perishes there, not being able to leave the beauty of his own reflection.
There are three people in my life who's random occupancy is nothing more than a twist of fate. They are not of my blood nor from my womb. Yet, I had extended to them the same love and grace as I would have to any loved one or stranger. Naively, I had made the mistake again in believing that kindness and grace bestowed is recognized as a gift and not an entitlement. The betrayals, the hatefulness once again pierced my heart. I have since determined that these three people are nothing more than nefarious villains. The grace once given will be given no more due to their iniquitous behavior, and what ever befall them will be of their own doing.
Maya Angelou once said, "When someone shows you who they are, believe them the first time." I'm believing Ms. Angelou, I'm believing...
I am a strong, bold and loving woman with a prodigious heart, but I am not a fool.
Let us go forth with fear and courage and rage to save the world.
Friday, August 21, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
I look into the mirror and ask, "who am I that I constantly continue to be naive about the goodness of people?" I'm too old to repeat such patterns, aren't I?
I really don't know how to be any other way. I can not live in a world that would require me to question the motives of every person that I come in contact with. Assumptive. I am too assumptive.
(is that even a word?) I always believe that you should be kind to everyone, help when ever you can. Kindness is it's own reward. Maybe, that is the wrong
assumption. Or maybe it's because I am always over the top and love everyone too extremely. More is not always better. And when will I learn?
By the way, you can find the great mirror above at, "The Mirror Lady.Com"
Hope you have a blessed day!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Isn't she beautiful? She glows from the inside out. She is amazing. Best friend to the world, mother of six princess' and wife to her traveling husband, King Hans. She is an amazing artist, and my creative muse. The picture on the right was taken of us at her Princess Amy's wedding, of which was stunningly beautiful as well as the adorable addition of Prince Joe, of whom I could just bite because he is so delightful.
This is the day we discovered we were Cherry Queens, sitting on the back of a convertible in my beloved Sonoma. Mitzi had traveled thousands of miles to see me, oh how I wish our Kingdoms weren't so far from each other. Queen Mitzi is the friend that everyone would want to have and the sister that I am so humbly grateful to have in my life. There is no one you would want in your corner more than her if the chips are down, and she is more fun than a barrel of monkeys! Love and miss you Mitzi...
Saturday, August 15, 2009
Friday, August 14, 2009
Thursday, August 13, 2009
The dentist appointment for my American husband went well. He liked the new dentist which is good news, I'm hoping that this will lead to him taking better care of himself and making regular appointments. He will need to return next Wednesday to get three back teeth pulled. Then Dr. DDS said they would worry about getting the rest in tip top shape. I think his face swelling to resemble a blow fish frieghtened him enough to know it's time to stop fooling around and take care of these things.
Dystonia is about the same today. I'm just so exhausted! Day in, day out, I know, I need to stop complaining and have a better attitude, as there are those who are so much worse off than I. But, it's not a contest, as I always say to those who are feeling miserable and then apologize gratefully because they know there are others in worse shape. Ok. That's my little tid bit for today, off to the shower, duty calls....
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
I have already accomplished a lot this morning, my sleeping husband will wake to a surprise that I have yet again spray painted our dining room chairs. This would be about layer number five. They have been many colors over the years, but last years colors of silver and cream do not match the new nest. He also won't be happy for where I painted them. Right outside of our front door where we share a small balcony with our next door neighbors, one of whom walked by in the middle of my project. I winced and apologized for the fumes, she was gracious and said, "that's ok, that's awesome." He knows I'm impetuous, he also knows that when something is in my head I have to get it out... so in all fairness, he should be happy I'm making our new nest so lovely. Our new neighbors seem friendly, they are young, it's like three's company in reverse, two young men and a young woman. I was a little apprehensive when I first saw them, tattoo's, lots of them, and a general look of anarchy about them. But they are very polite in passing and always smile and greet me respectfully. To my benefit, I usually get along well with the younger generation, no matter what life style they choose. It's been my experience that they only want kindness and respect and when given it is returned.
Felt really rough when I woke up this morning, didn't sleep well. I didn't take any med's last night before I went to bed. I need to try to not take them if I can help it. It bothers me to take so many strong prescriptions. I went from being a girl who wouldn't take an aspirin for a head ache to a "junkie" overnight. I say "junkie" because that is what all of these pills make me feel like. Like a bio hazard waste dump. I want that general sense of well being feeling back with out having to take a pill to accomplish it. I wish upon a star that one day I will wake up and dystonia will be a faint memory of some lesson, that I havn't figured out yet, that I had to learn and I will be in remission. For now, the shower waits, the chair is drying on the balcony, and I have to move quickly, I need to get in early as I will be taking a long lunch today to drag my significant other to the dentist. Uuuggghhh...an appointment he needed three years ago, but refused until his face swelled like a blow fish over the weekend and I had to call for an emergency prescription of antibiotic on Sunday for him. Have a blessed day, duty calls...
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
Saturday, August 8, 2009
I am thrilled to say that I have been accepted to participate in this swap hosted by Linda @ A Swap For All Seasons. This is exactly what the doctor ordered! Please visit her inspiring beautiful site at... http://aswapforallseasons.blogspot.com
I know how time consuming being hostess to a swap is, so generous for Linda to do this for us. Thank you Linda!
The doctors visit yesterday was the same as they always are. I get weighed. [Lost two more lbs. Hurray! Twenty-five total now, still have sixty to go...uuughhh. Doesn't really show yet, maybe a little in my face, it's my butt that's the slacker, first to grab it, last to leave it.. I am determined though, I soooo want to be the size I was before I got sick in time for my son's wedding in December.] The medical assistant takes me to the examination room, where she lethargically ask me every single month what I am there for. I tell her the same thing every time. She roughly takes my blood pressure, and exercises concern every time, yesterday was 100/54. It usually stays around that range, sometimes a little lower, so her concern yesterday made me roll my eyes and then giggle. Every visit is like that movie "Groundhog Day". The doctor comes in, I swear, she doesn't listen to half of what I say to her. She pulls out her prescription pad while she is sitting to talk to me, I talk, she says, "Uh Hu, Uh Hu, Uh Hu, writes me out a cocktail of prescriptions and sends me on my way. Yesterday she got a little crazy and prescribed "Clonazepam", 0.5 MG. It's definately not going to work for me! I took one last night when I got home @ 7:30 p.m. I haven't been able to stay awake since. It's 3:30 p.m. Saturday and I feel like I need to go to bed again. I have been sleeping since I took it last night, I've been awake three different times today for about 1/2 hr each and now I need to sleep again. The good new is that it took the pulling and twisting in my neck away. And since I was previously suffering from insomnia with no other sleep aide working, I now have no trouble sleeping, now it's ironically opposite...now I can't stay awake! I'm not taking it the rest of the weekend, I will call her on Monday and ask her to prescribe my Soma's back to me. She had changed it out thinking that the effectiveness of the Soma's were wearing off. Just one problem, I would like to be a part of the waking world!!!! I have got to get a new primary care physician who is actually interested in helping me. Doctor Ms. Uh Hu maybe great for prescription junkies, but I hate taking all of this stuff and I want my life back. I hope this stuff wears off soon, I feel like a drooler... Blessings to all of you citizens of Blog Land...I'm off to bed again...