Wednesday, October 6, 2010

Let's Hear It For the Girls, Even If We are all A Bit Upside Down Right Now.

As always my near and dear faithful friends are always there.... humbly I thank you all. Everything feels upside down right now. As I visit each of you it seems we all have so many struggles to overcome right now and my heart is challenged to stop the tears from flowing....
I am committed to pray with out ceasing for all of us. How is it that such goodness and light be surrounded by so much darkness? I was thinking about it for the last couple of days, people are always so quick to quote, "God never gives us more than we can handle...." Sometimes the quote angers me...but I was thinking yesterday that maybe it's because we are not supposed to handle so much and in blind faith hand it over to him? Just a thought to make some kind of sense of the struggles we are all facing right now....

I have a new neurologist... Dr. Duncan. Yesterday after months of fighting with the botox pharmacy, insurance, etc. I finally received my shots. Now I sit and wait to see if they're effective. I did appreciate is approach, instead of the nine or twelve stabs that I have become accustomed to, he only injected me twice. One injection in the front of my neck and one in the back. He assures me that it will be just as effective and that there is no need to stick me as many times as the other neuro's did. I'm afraid he should have injected me one more time on the right side. It usually takes three or four weeks to see how they are working, but the right side is driving me crazy in excruciating pain tonight. I woke up this morning with my body so sore I felt like a mac truck had ran me over. AH liked Dr. D tremendously...I think he really like it more that I didn't break his hand from squeezing it yesterday...usually he holds my hand through the shots, but baby girl had gone out and bought me stress balls to squeeze instead....it worked pretty well. The shot in the front of my neck wasn't pleasant but no where near the pain from the one in the back left side. It felt like he stuck the needle so deep that it was going to come out the front.... but lesser of two evils and at least I have finally found somewhere to go where everyone from the receptionist to the nurse and doc were empathetic, friendly and professional. I told AH that usually my body goes into shock from the pain of the shots, but this time I think I was in shock by all of their kindness...sad but true, I have never been treated so kindly in the two years since I've developed dystonia. Amazing and sad to think about when you consider how many doctors I've seen. Still thanking God for mercy none the less.

I have much more to tell you all but I'll leave it with this for tonight. I hope all of you are blessed and that God will send you strength and his angels to surround you all so that you can rest if only for a moment in the feathery down of their wings.

XOXO Keke

P.S. Yes the cutie hanging upside down on the rings is Mitzi's Em. I could just bite her she is so adorable!

5 comments:

Patti said...

you go girl. I use the 'Mac Truck' expression quite a bit and, as far as the concept that God doesn't give us more than we can handle, well, we are still here. amazing, yes. painful, yes. but your words are courageous and inspiring. so hard to think that we have to feel so crappy to put out some good vibes:)
I hope your shots (sounded scary!!) bring you the relief you need and deserve. blessings, p

Emily said...

I'm super glad you had such great Doctor's and Nurse's!

GET BETTER SOON AUNT KEKE!!!

Patti said...

Sending hugs and good wishes to YOU!!! I am glad you have found a place where you feel more comfortable and kindness prevails. That is so important but so easily overlooked. Also- I love that quote "God never gives you more than you can handle" I don't fully understand the quote and it is sometimes hard to apply, but I believe in it nonetheless. I just KNOW that soon your world will be right side up again... Take care~ Love, patti

Tracy Suzanne said...

Oh' Darlin', I can't begin to imagine the pain and suffering you go through. I'm really glad to hear that you've found a Drs office that is as it should be ~ polite, understanding and comforting if possible. Wouldn't you think in our day and age they could come up with a way to lessen the pain of the shot. I just cringe thinking about receiving one in either of those places. I'm praying for you and hoping these help. I hope Friday greets you with a good spirit and clear, beautiful skies.

Be blessed Sweetie and have a wonderful weekend. Hugs...Tracy :)

P.S. I'm hear anytime you want a friend or a shoulder.

Suzanne said...

Yikes! The shots sound very painful...I hope that they help. Please let us know. For me, the meds are working well enough. I'm praying and wishing dystonia would leave you alone.

Big hugs and kisses,
Suzanne