Monday, March 22, 2010

Something Good Monday and the 'Joy' Factor

Monday, Monday...So, here I am...I have to say it's a very strange feeling to know that I will not be rushing this morning to get my neck as straight as I possibly can to rush to madhatter time...I'm experiencing an overwhelming amount of emotions this morning...to know that soulless is addressing my staff this morning, a staff that I had poured my heart and soul into brings overwhelming sadness...and fear...and anger... What will she say to them? I can only imagine, and then she'll go into one of her dramatic acts, I can hear the words coming out of her mouth...I've been present too many times for one of these events...she will sigh, and look distraught and she will tell everyone how victimized she is from my actions, and undoubtedly that I just walked and left the company in a very critical position at a very critical time...and then she will say 'but we'll get through this' and what she really means is she'll make my staff work as much overtime as she can and she will will harass them every five minutes until they lose their mind because she doesn't give them a moment to breathe or get their work done, as she continues to live her life uninterrupted...I want them to know that I was fighting for them, for us, this wasn't just about me. It was about how we were all treated on a daily basis by soulless...they won't know any of this. This whole process was supposed to be held in confidence. I held up my end, soulless did not hold up hers, of course.... So all they will know is whatever soulless tells them and the fact that I'm not there and will not be returning. All being said, it also brings the emotions of relief and even 'joy' the possibilities of new beginnings. Change is scary, but it was more frightening to me to see where my health would be even a month from now. I truly was getting sicker with each day that passed. I have some cleaning up to do, wipe the cobwebs and visions of the corruption out of my head, and hopefully I will be able to sweep up the broken remnants and polish the tarnish of this experience from heart and soul.
The HR person had asked for me to call her this morning in the voicemail she left me on Friday...she wants to meet with me possibly tomorrow morning to figure out what 'we' need to do...she also would like to give me the opportunity to discuss with her anything I feel the 'independent advisor' may have over looked... Ummmm.... 'NO' I have repeatedly given documents and proof...I'm done speaking and providing. In the last 31/2 months I have spent approximately 20 hrs. of my life that I will never get back in their 'interviews' and so much more in research and providing documents of corruption...no more. Is the pen mightier than the sword? I hope so...As I told them on Friday, it was nice for their 'employer lawyer' to massage and caress this investigation to reflect a no harm done outcome, as they are both trying to tell me they really know nothing of her that she was hired because someone had recommended her...more lies and games, and as I've said, it's so offensive for them to patronize me in this way as if I wouldn't possibly have the intelligence to figure it out...

So what's something good today? I can still stand, I will stand and best of all I can breath again. I have all of you cheering me, I have a lot of work to do but with love and encouragement I know that I am luckier than most. Thank you as always falls short, you all will never know how much your love, prayers and encouragement mean to me...In fact, with the love of my family and all of you and the grace that God has given me I give credit that I stand. I hope that you find your joy factor today...
Be blessed and well.
XOXO Keke



2 comments:

Patti said...

Wow Keke~ I do not really know what to say. I am sorry that things went this way, but NOT sorry because as you stated- new beginnings and they place/person was making you sicker- how could you continue on there. You have to believe that what has happenened has happened for a reason and that reason will be a positive one. It may take some time for it all to fall into place, but believe it is all for the good and you WILL be on to better opportunities. Hugs to you!!!

Tracy Suzanne said...

Hey Keke. Honey, what can I possibly say to you? I'm sorry, but that isn't enough. You deserve so much better and I can only believe that's exactly what's going to take place in your life now. You're full of goodness and fairness and I know there is a better place where you will be appreciated for all those wonderful qualities. You're a wonderful child of God who only brings positive love to the people who are lucky enough to get to know you. Thank goodness you are a friend. I'm blessed by that alone. The doors and windows are opened and the caged bird can now be free. Stay strong and sing loud, my sweet loving Keke.
oooxxx's....Tracy :)