The Game

So it is, a game, a game of waiting, a game of pawns. Waiting to see the next move exacted by soulless and her soulless sister. It's exhausting. AH says, "Don't worry, you'll win, just do what you know to do..." I look at him, the worry on his face is perhaps engraved deeper than mine. I tell him that there are no winners in this, not even with the employee that has made the charges against me for "treating her unfairly". She has spent the last several weeks walking around like a cat with a feather in her mouth. I want to say to her, "You don't know what you've done." I wonder if she thinks that my losing my position would mean that she had won? She doesn't understand how much I've shielded her and the rest of my team from soulless. Taking the brunt for them with soulless' constant and consist ant out burst. If I go, she will soon learn. The first time she has a mental melt down in front of soulless she will learn the kindness that I had always shown her. She will report directly to soulless, and soulless will learn too, they will both deserve what they get.... The stress on some of my other staff members faces wear on me too. They know what it means if I go...One of them asked me yesterday how it was going. I did not lie as I normally would muster up all the cheer I had and tell them to not worry, it will be fine, this too shall pass. This time I simply said, "not good". Her eyes started to tear, she said, " why are they being so dramatic, why can't they move on, I don't want to talk to her again." She was speaking of soulless sister, she has called everyone of my staff members in for questioning. I said, "I don't know, other than they get some kind of pay off for all of this drama, it's as if they delight in it." She said, "If you go..." I interrupted her with, " oh no, don't you worry, I'm not quitting, they will have to put me out kicking and screaming..." She laughed out loud and I saw a sign of relief wash over her teared up eyes, she said, "well good then, that's good." I walked away thinking about the worry and the wrinkles this is causing everyone. I feel bad. I feel like I'm some where between the letter that "Jerry McGuire" wrote and "Erin Brockovich" (sp chk on that). It's what I said in the beginning, we are all pawns. I wish my pawn would float away in a bubble, but since that's not likely to happen I'll go forward...

Waiting for their next move, praying the righteous prevail and hoping that the truth will find it's way to a discerning and righteous person that has the power to make this all stop. Mostly praying that it doesn't get any worse than it is, while knowing that it will most definitely get worse before it gets better. Truth is powerful, but only if it's brought to light...

And with that, it's madhatter time. I hope you have a joy filled day.

XO Keke